WHAT IS FRIENDSHIP?

I have asked myself the question what is a friend for a very long time. If some one had asked me 5 years ago if I had friends I would have said yes I would have actually said I have best friends but as years have progressed I have failed to find the meaning of friend. I have been in two high schools but I haven’t had friends. People define friendship differently some call the people the hang out with friends, some say it’s the people that know the most secrets about them. I say friendship is when you forget that you and that person are not related to you. My specific problem is that I believe that people at school don’t know the real me but it’s because at school I am a different person but it’s because they don’t know me that much. I haven’t had that bond with a person it’s not because I don’t want to but it’s because that person already has their own person. I really need to have social classes because I can’t keep friends and maybe part of it is because I am possessive I can’t deal with having a friend who turns to another friend for support if anyone knows what that is can they please tell me I also want to have that person that I have been friends with for 10 years. I want to have my own JAKE or MING (if you didn’t know they are from awkward). I had planned to write about celebrities in order to attract more readers but I just had to write about this.I know this is all over the place and please forgive me for that I am still trying to get used to it.