A FRESH START

so I have decided that after sometime you need to change things. I have changed my look a lot of times and I bet a whole lot of people have as well. My holidays are starting on monday and I hope I will be able to share everything with you. First stop is Mpumalanga I will be spending time with my nieces and nephews. Yesterday I experienced something that I have been finding hard to deal with. Yesterday night I went jogging with my mom/mum and sister and we were jogging at the beach meaning a lot of people were there but that wasn't my problem, my problem was that as a child I have battled with being overweight and I am trying to rectify that as an adult but because being fat people usually notice everything you do even if it's your first meal of the day they say you over eat that's what happened to me I was taking a breather because I had been jogging and I told my mom/mum and sister to carry on but a few males came past while I was taking that breather and they said shame she can't even run which triggered my insecurities because I come from a family of achievers and lately I have been feeling average. All my sisters received bursaries to go to University and they all went to UCT which is South Africa's number one but I have had average marks the best achievement I have received is being first in the Consumer Studies Olympiad which other people don't even know exists and I didn't get to a University in Cape Town and also University of Pretoria rejected me and I only got into Durban University of Technology which is a place where we grew up and never thought of going. I just hope that I can do something that my parents will be proud of and I will be proud of but what I have realised is that you are only proud of yourself when you compared yourself with yourself the you will see the improvement. So I hope that everyone that is reading this is able to accept themselves for the way they are. After all Bruno Mars said that WE ARE AMAZING JUST THE WAY WE ARE!!.