SAYING NO!!

Sad things are about to happen. I’m leaving home for varsity and it’s quite scary but what is most scary is that varsity is a whole different world than high school because I have been to boarding school before but then we were still innocent and ready to meet new people. I remember my first day in boarding school there was this social network that was still the in thing in my early teens and it was Mxit, it was my whole world I had been bought a phone in grade7 so that was my main focus in boarding school, the first day our boarding mistress welcomed us I was probably on my phone that’s one of things you don’t want to do in boarding school is to show everyone your new bought phone because a lot of people didn’t have cell phones that could chat and me being a person that can’t say no I ended up having to borrow a lot of people my phone that wasn’t the problem the problem was when I got called to the principal’s office and didn’t know why, when I got there I found out that my number had sent a message to one of the boys in school saying that I was pregnant and his mother reported this being an African raised child I wasn’t used to have to look an adult in the eye but according to the Caucasians the only reason a person doesn’t look someone in the eye is when they are lying  so my phone was confiscated for two terms and my parents couldn’t trust me again. When I got back my phone the usually continued I shared it with everybody else and to make matters worse it died I don’t know what happened when someone was using and they brought it back only for me to find out that it didn’t work anymore. I had to tell my parents but I didn’t know how. I thanked my sister for not telling them that almost everyone was using it. When I finally told my dad he received the news better than I had thought but the worst was still to come for me because after that I stayed without a phone for a year. I know that won’t happen this time because I have a crappy phone but how would I be able to say no with my laptop and if I get a camera (I pray I get a camera) how will I say not with it too. I have to learn to be responsible or I am going to end gadget less and sad while everyone else is enjoying their blackberries. 

TURNING OVER A NEW LEAF

I have to say I don’t know what is wrong with me. Ever since these social networks were introduced I want to thrive in being the most followed, with the most friends, likes or even pageviews. The problem with me is that sometimes I live an invisible life but to me it’s different. I don’t socialise but I want to have a lot of friends. I have to confess once I went to a school trip but it included other schools as well, there were a lot of people a true platform for socialising but instead I got to know people I was only in the group with but when I tell stories everyone would think that I had made friends with everyone but it was not so I was in the shadows listening to people talking and sharing bbm pins and after that I wished I was them. I have had a problem lately because I rarely do anything exciting or go out with friend yet I have all this internet access I sometimes look at other peoples photos on facebook and read what they have been doing for the weekend, guy code says that a person who has time to write about how much fun they are having is usually not, but what do you say when that person has tons of pictures to prove it. My other problem  I want to have a lot of friends on facebook because when I view someone else’s profile and they have a thousand friends I get jealous. I really want to stand out from the crowd, I actually think I do but even if I do I still want to be noticed. I spend so much time checking if someone liked or commented on my status update , instead of reading important things like what is happening in the world or even my country. After this publish this is that I promise to do, I will delete my twitter account, my blogtalkradio account and focus on substance. I’m turning a new leaf people and it will start at Orientation on the 4 of Feb 2013. Mmabatho guarantees that she will come back home with at least 1 acquaintance not to have facebook friends or people who will view her blog but communicate with world around her.

THE TWO CRAZIES

Reminiscing with my family about the olden days, I know they are not that old because I was born 19 years ago but that doesn’t matter. I am sure every kid when they were young had a favourite game I remember every day after school I was stuck with playing battleship or chess with my sisters until we were finally allowed to play outside ( if you ask me my parents needed a visit from the worst mum). Since we were introduced into playing boring games as kids our best game was playing school how we didn’t get enough of it at school I don’t know. The game was fun at first learning new things always got us excited, that ended when my sister decided to be a DICTATOR!!! We never got the chance to be the teacher and to make matters worse she decided that the school will be pro corporal punishment that meant every time you gave a wrong answer or didn’t do your homework which was extra to the homework you got from real school you would get a BIG FAT LASH on your hand that you would never forget. We never got to deal with this Traumatic experience so we ended up developing PTSD a severe one. After my sister went to boarding school we decided to try being the teacher ourselves trust me power corrupts. Since we didn’t have volunteering punching bags our students were flowers and trees in our mum’s garden I remember beating up a fern tree so much that it weltered and these were the exact words that came out of my mouth “look what you have made me do all because you didn’t do your homework now I have to put a bandage on you” I remember that I would use to go to the toilet and take pieces of toilet paper and wrap it around the tree as a bandage in order to stop the bleeding. What shocks me yet still makes me crack up till my knees are filled with water is that I only realised now that I was talking to trees. This is why now I strongly believe that school should be something that we experience once a day because if it accumulates you might just end up having psychotic children like me and my sister.

SUNRISE

Waking up in the morning I have fears

I fear the fact that I might not live through the day

I fear if I would ever do the things I

plan to do, we all set New Year’s resolutions

but they usually stay in that hopeful part of our mind.

I fear that the life I dream of will not be as such, with my

cheek pressing on that pillow I escape into this world where

Everything is about me.

I fear that I as a human being will never be good enough,

Replaced, over shadowed, and forgotten.

But as my cheek presses on that pillow while the sun

sets and the stars wait to blossom,

I fear that my fears will come true. 

THE BATTLE BETWEEN CHRISTIANITY AND PHILOSOPHY

The battle between Christianity and Philosophy started with Plato’s Allegory of the cave which was an example of ideas and what is perceived as reality but that is not our focus, you see Plato believed in this theory called The theory of Forms which in his view he believed what is known must not only be true but also perfect and unchanging. However nothing in the Allegory of the cave agrees with statement because a tall man is short when compared to a tree so then Plato proposed that there must be another world outside the cave which is perfect and unchanging and this is where our focus is as most of us know Christianity is based on the afterlife where everything is perfect. In popular culture there is an echo of Plato's allegory in the writing of C.S. Lewis, the author of the seven fantasy novels that together form the Chronicles of Narnia. In the Last Battle the children at the centre of the stories witness the destruction of Narnia (which in Christian terms could be referred to as the end of the world) and enter the world of Aslan (Heaven)  a wonderful country that includes all that was best in Narnia. The children finally discover that they have died and passed from the ‘Shadowlands’, which was but a pale imitation of the everlasting and unchanging world they now inhabit. So if we agree that there is a clear echo of Plato’s allegory in these books than does that mean Plato was a prophet of God’s word or the bases of Christianity are from Plato’s allegory. 

HAPPINESS, INSPIRATIONAL, LOVE =, OPTIMISM AND STRENGTH

“Promise Yourself

To be so strong that nothing
can disturb your peace of mind.
To talk health, happiness, and prosperity
to every person you meet.

To make all your friends feel
that there is something in them
To look at the sunny side of everything
and make your optimism come true.

To think only the best, to work only for the best,
and to expect only the best.
To be just as enthusiastic about the success of others
as you are about your own.

To forget the mistakes of the past
and press on to the greater achievements of the future.
To wear a cheerful countenance at all times
and give every living creature you meet a smile.

To give so much time to the improvement of yourself
that you have no time to criticize others.
To be too large for worry, too noble for anger, too strong for fear,
and too happy to permit the presence of trouble.

To think well of yourself and to proclaim this fact to the world,
not in loud words but great deeds.
To live in faith that the whole world is on your side
so long as you are true to the best that is in you.” 
― Christian D. Larson, Your Forces and How to Use Them

YOU CAN'T HAVE IT ALL

I have to say days are good for South African sport. The proteas are playing well this was the recent review by Supersport : New Zealand cricket coach Mike Hesson knows it will be challenging to face South Africa again, but he says they were not quite prepared for the rude awakening they received at the start of the first test match.

The Proteas crushed the tourists by an innings and 27 runs in the first test in Cape Town last week, after bowling out the Black Caps for 45 runs in the first innings.

“At the end of the first day, if we didn't already know we were in for an extremely tough game, we certainly realised it pretty quickly,” Hesson said at the weekend.

“We all knew it would be very hard coming into the test, but the reality hit home after the first morning.”

After the Black Caps were dismissed in 19.2 overs, spending exactly 100 minutes at the crease, Hesson said they had picked themselves up and decided to deal with the disaster another time, opting to move on with the battle rather than falling to pieces.

“We knew we had to be pretty strong mentally and we showed that at the end of the game,” he said.

“The match was dictated by the first couple of hours and from that point on we were largely competitive, but that horror session had already set up the game.” I think they should have took a few more days to deal with the shock. Besides the Proteas doing well, yesterday Bafana Bafana played Norway even though it was a 1-0 loss the statistics proved to be on their favour and what is more important is that the fans of South Africa are supporting them all the way. Even though that is all good and well problems have arisen in Limpopo due to the repetition of what seemed to thee most horrific thing of the textbooks not being delivered. After the worst strike South Africa has experienced in years (Marikana Strike) we might  be experiencing the same with farm workers demanding wage increases. You would think they were looking at this situation when they said you can't have it all.

I WOULDN'T COPE

So a friend of mine didn't pass very well so all of his applications were withdrawn, firstly he didn't do well on all his subjects and secondly some of his marks are pending. The problem now is because he is my friend I have to help him but what scares me the most is having to find spaces in varsities because most of them are full. It is thee most stressful something I have ever done but what worries me the most is that if it is stressing me so much what is it doing to him. It is at these times that I just wish we marked our own report/statements

HELP!!!

So the results hype has worn off but what everyone is worried about now is choosing a Universities. Personally I had made my decision up until I got a message that the University of KwaZuluNatal is accepting me a BA: Politics,philosophy and law and it is a very interesting course and I have interest in politics but the course I got accepted for at Durban University of Technology is also interesting and it is what I have always imagined myself doing. My problem now is that I'm stuck between choosing a University that is in the top 500 in the world which is UKZN and which also has amazing facilities and opportunities with something that I had initially decided on doing. This is the part I hate the most about being an adult and having to take life changing decisions. The question I'm asking myself now is do I choose passion for quality or quality for passion. 

THE SWING

My mum says I look like a sack of potatoes

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A PLACE TO BE!!

After what was thee most stress filled day of my life my mum took me to thee most beautiful site in KwaZuluNatal and that is Oribi Gorge
 
And that was where I relived my stress by doing a 33 storey jump that made me fear for my life, but after doing it I wanted to do it again

I say to everyone reading this blog when you come to South Africa visit the Oribi Gorge

STRESS

I couldn't be more than happy, my blog has reached 400 views and it has pageviews views from Indonesia now but I just can't seem to get that there is only a day before I get my results. Apart of me cant wait but another feels like I can just move on with life. I HAVE NEVER BEEN SO SCARED IN MY LIFE!! but I know writing now and again will be my motivation to go on. I hope I made my parents proud.